My sad Life.....

So I've pretty much decided that I'm going to die an old spinster. This decision is not by choice but really by an outside force called boys. Currently I am not a huge fan of them. I always get the lets just be friends talk. You know the one. You're fun and cute and really nice but I think its best if we just stay friends. Okay first of all that kind of puts a wrench in the whole friends situation. It just a nice way of saying I don't like you so lets be awkward friends who when they see each other use a few awkward how are you? and what have you been up too? To me that is not friendship.... Friendship is when you can just call to talk to the person and there are no weird moments.. Also when you can have comfortable silences. You can act like a total nerd and they don't care because either A: they are doing it with you or B: they have seen you act like that before and are quite used to it. This is friendship to me. Guys who say lets be friends and we can still hang out, i mean its a noble idea but it sometimes would have been better to just be friends from the get go so you don't have to have this wonderful talk. Maybe I under-think stuff to much but I am the type of person who always puts friendship first and then if something happens you'll always be friends. Well anyways this is why I'm going to be like Captain Hook, not that I'm going to feed my right hand to a croc, but i'm going to be old and alone. Maybe I'll become a pirate and just pillage and not have a care in the world. That sounds good.